Well, hello everyone, My readers, my Love :), So today, i don’t want to waste our time and start our blog. It’s 23 April ‘24, I am in my office Noida, and the weather is very awesome, very lovely weather. I can say, the weather is very romantic :), and in this lovely weather, i am not gonna lie, if we both were alone today, i am gonna have some dance steps with her and spend a very good quality of time. But she is with their friends, and she also scared to show love with me infront of colleagues. Well, it’s ok.
Now you will gonna ask yourself, that why this guy use insecurity in the title, Why??. So, let me get to the point, she opened her hair, and the sunlight is directly shining on her hair. She is looking so beautiful, so damn beautful. So why insecurity is hitting in my mind. She is with her male best friend right now. Well i trust her, I don’t have any issues. But the thing is. I don’t like her best friend, somewhere i don’t know i think that he still try to hit on her.
Well the blog i am writing is an immediate thought hit on my mind, the way he talks to her, the way sometimes he look at her. I still don’t have any issues, but sometimes i feel insecurities. Okay, all boyfriends feel the same, i am not alone. But when insecurities hit, i can’t think something else, i start thinking about her, i am not able to eat something, i can’t focus on my work, not in a mobile game too, i can’t do anything just think about her.
So the main reason of writing the blog is, i just want to tell how i feels when insecurities hit me. And now i feel little bit relaxe. I can’t sleep when insecurity hits. Well, it’s ok. I don’t want to be toxic like my friends, i love her, and she feels good when she is with their friends, she loves to spend time with them. So it’s ok. Please don’t judge me, this is just how i feel.
Sometimes insecurity hits very hard. At a point, your brain stops working. Sometimes we wonder why best friends even exist, I also think that sometimes :), I am sorry, but that’s natural, sometimes we feel hurt. but we can’t tell them. I also feel sometimes hurt. sorry, but this para was edited on 24 April ’24, and today I am also feeling some insecurities. We genuinely feel hurt. Sorry for my English ;). But sometimes I think she spends more time with their best friends and I feel ignored. Well, she speaks less with me, I’ve told her several times about our miscommunication gap, in the last month of march, I felt like I was talking alone with myself while talking to her.
I really thinks sometime that she was trying to ignore me, sorry, this is what I feel, so I just wrote on my blog, I littrealy got scared when we meet face to face, I can’t say this her directly, so I just express my feelings here. I thinks she spends good quality of time with their friends and may be that much not with me. I trust her and I love her, but her best friend, I’ve zero percent trust on him, zero f**king percent, I know that guy, his friends neither trust on him, their friends always tells me to notice that guy, he might be still trying on her.
Well at last, i just wanna say that. You have to control yourself, your partner have their own life, they also want to enjoy their life with their friends and all, they also have some relation or bond with them. You can’t bound anyone’s life. And i also don’t want to be toxic. I don’t want her to feel that dating this guy was my good decision or not. I don’t she ask this question to herself. Thank you so much for reading 🙂